“The idea that people can activate different potentialities of belief and dis-belief is relevant to my subject … these labels “believer,” “atheist,” “misotheist” do not always apply as pure essences of identity. True. There certainly are degrees of anger at God, shades of misotheism, if you will. This is what I explore in greater detail in my book. Your own wavering between rational atheism and emotional misotheism can be seen as a reflection of what I call “agonistic misotheism.” One can argue that somebody who emotionally rebels against God, even if it is only temporary, and even if it is “only” on an emotional level, is not a textbook atheist. There obviously is that remnant of belief in the deity that makes you want to quarrel with him. This is one of the characteristics of “agonistic misotheism”.
– Bernard Schweizer
Hating God: The Untold Story of Misotheism | Bernard Schweizer